Looking Ahead!

I have changed a lot of schools and have moved to many new places throughout my life, thanks to my father being in a transferable job. This instilled in me a natural love and excitement for new places. Any apprehensions I would ever have about moving would soon be replaced by the excitement that yet another adventure was waiting for me, as for me, moving to a totally new city and meeting new people was nothing short of a great adventure. I loved exploring the city and discovering its charms, and shifting into yet another house which we had to make our very own home was something which I loved. As I grew older, however, the nomadic life lost its fun; settling in a new city was not as exciting as it once seemed,  it could never replace the loss of old friends and familiarity.
Soon however, the transfers became less frequent, and now I have been living in the place I call home for some 7 odd years.
Now , once again a time has come for me to move. To a whole new country, not just a new city or another state. This time it is going to be harder than it has ever been, because this is the first time when I will be going alone and not with my parents. People expect me to be excited and enthusiastic, and I try. But the feeling of losing all that is familiar to me takes over. The realization that I am an adult hits hard. This doesn't mean I am not looking forward to this new phase, one which will definitely be one of the most amazing years of my life. In two weeks, I will have everything I've always wanted as a child : the freedom to explore myself and the world, ability to make my own decisions and living my life the way I want to. Certainly, this is like a rite of passage into adulthood which everyone in this world has to go through at some point in their lives, to grow up into a well rounded individual. It is just hard to believe my time is already here!

Here's to the next one year, which is going to be one hell of a ride, with experiences to last a lifetime!

"The only thing that is constant is change."

The Threshold...

A while ago, travelling by train, I remember noticing a small boy sitting in his father’s lap and playing the ever classic game every kid loves- let’s pretend. The boy was pretending to drive a car, with his gear being a lever that is used to change the inclination of the seats in the train. Seeing this little kid made me reminisce my own childhood, when I too loved to pretend -sometimes a teacher; or a young woman in college; and sometimes not unlike the little boy, loved to pretend –drive, sometimes in my father’s car.

As kids, we loved to pretend to be adults, and growing up seemed to take forever.  We wanted to be adults too, so that people would take us seriously, and we would have the independence we so desired in our childhood days.  Growing up took a long time, but when it finally came, it came suddenly, and isn't nearly as much fun as we imagined it to be as kids. Yes, we are taken seriously now, and yes, we have all the independence we require, but somewhere along the way, we lost the desire for these things. How ironical is it that now as adults, we wish to go back to the childhood, when everything was simple, everything was pure. The world was black and white. Everyone was a friend. An enemy was someone who had a different favourite colour than you did. Today, as I stand on the brink of becoming a graduate in a few months’ time, I wish to hold on to the last bit of the child in me that is still alive. I wish to do all the crazy things, and not be judged. I want to be as carefree and as inquisitive as a child, and as optimistic about the world as one. I want to believe in the good of everyone, and forget that there are dark places on this earth too. I want to sing and dance with joy at the first rains, and I want to jump in puddles and make a complete fool of myself.  I want to squeal with happiness when I am happy, and I want to bawl, quite literally, like a child when I’m down. I want to be able dump all my problems on my parents and then forget about them altogether. I want to sit and dream about my hopes and wishes. There are a lot of things I want to do before I am officially a graduate, but most of all, I do not want to grow up…